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satyagraha
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If that's what it takes, than so be it. 
Fort
I just want give ya a hug buddie, i luv ya dude
Smith
Oh my sweet 758, yes we are involved in a tug of war.
Who's on the other side of the rope if we're both on the same end? |
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I fear this thread may be driving me temporarily sane..  |
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fortwynt
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| Posted: Fri Aug 29, 2008 11:24 am Post subject: |
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I appreciate that Satya, and you deserve a hug yourself....I think your words about me were very kind.
I'm not sure I deserve that particular level of praise, but I thank you for heaping it upon me nevertheless.
The truth is, I do all I can to be empathetic and kind to all people, even people who aren't particularly mindful of my need for similar treatment....but that isn't to say that I don't possess (or am possessed by) some terribly dark thoughts and feelings at times. |
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fortwynt
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| Posted: Fri Aug 29, 2008 1:53 pm Post subject: |
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smith758
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Does fortwynt's "dark side" straggle around Strughold's cognitive dissonance forest, as Robin Hood? Nottingham is a forest all over the world. Sockpuppets everywhere identify with Project Paperclip's mythology of slave/master pathology.
A Munchausen's Manchurian of a NWO Robin Hood? Eschatology of virginal grapes aside, is Santa's toy shop failing to provide?
Given the media con manipulative black outs, the numbers could be in the tens of millions "homicidal/suicidal" butterfly effect, narcoleptic, social chameleon copycats who can't see the trees are for recycling. Internet is a weapon and Mr Yang revolutionized the 'cesspool's' playpen. |
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fortwynt
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| Posted: Fri Aug 29, 2008 2:31 pm Post subject: |
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A Munchausen's Manchurian of a NWO Robin Hood? Eschatology of virginal grapes aside, is Santa's toy shop failing to provide?
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| Given the media con manipulative black outs, the numbers could be in the tens of millions "homicidal/suicidal" butterfly effect, narcoleptic, social chameleon copycats who can't see the trees are for recycling. Internet is a weapon and Mr Yang revolutionized the 'cesspool's' playpen. |
Ahh, Smith returns, how refreshing.
The mushroom cloud from the explosion was apparently over 100 feet in the air and knocking people off their couches, and rattled homes for 20-30 miles away.
They are now saying it could be this
http://extoxnet.orst.edu/pips/methomyl.htm
Which would not be good.
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| Does fortwynt's "dark side" straggle around Strughold's cognitive dissonance forest, as Robin Hood? Nottingham is a forest all over the world. Sockpuppets everywhere identify with Project Paperclip's mythology of slave/master pathology. |
That's a very interesting question, Smith. I like it. "Straggle" is a good way of putting it, in fact. One has to be particularly careful which sides of ones-self they allowed to be shown, here and there. |
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| Posted: Fri Aug 29, 2008 2:56 pm Post subject: |
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Fortwynt-
Insightful, empathetic, observant, respectful, mellow
Fortwynt(2)-
Rage, bottled anger, quick tempered, tightly controlled |
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One must take special pre-caution when one is tiptoe-ing through a veritable mine-field. I know I often watch my step. There has certainly, however, been a time or two when I have let my "other" come across a little too strongly....but by and large I keep that side of me under pretty tight wraps....
When one is respected, to a particular degree, one has to hold that image up without fail, for if one slips at all, they fall upon you with swords and forget all the good things about you in one fell swoop.
I have about had it with portraying myself that way though. |
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| With fortitude, fortwynt fights with fervor, against fantastic and fanatic foes....their frequencies fixated and focused, frazzled and freyed functionality ensues....fortunately, fore-sight and fore-knowledge, in this case, favors favourable fate for the faceless of a public forum. |
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People pleasing is lonelier than Schopenhauer's solitude. Twentieth century schizoid man must people please when alone.
American Fridge
I want an American fridge
with shiny red pop bottles in clear plastic drawers.
Foil tube wraps of meat and plastic of yoghurt.
Oreos, ice cream, cheeseburgers,
Apple pie, deep fried in batter with caramel syrup.
Candied baby carrots
with a beef hip.
Potato chips, chocolate bars, pizza pops
Cool Whip.
Cocoa Puffs, Fruit Loops, Lucky Charms.
Every meal on the Good Ship Lollipop
comes with bonbons.
Short drive in the car
to the candy store.
Sachets premade, beans and rice, already tariff paid, American Fridge:
Forty - The Sanskrit word for nirvana translates to "the fire burning out." "Nirvana" is not an entirely different state from that of malleable mind controlled zero. Freedom from desire, extinguished fire - pole reversals or metaphysical equations that leave persona non grata alone on the throne.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Rj-4t9drUlM |
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fortwynt
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Smith. Do you ever feel that way?
The one who lives in me feels nothing, just observes. At times I can hold my hands under the steaming water and I think "i cant tell if its really hot or really cold".
No co-incidence the fire of Cobains Nirvana burned to zero, empty zero.
We share an affliction of intense stomach pain.
I also share a birthdate with Charles Manson. |
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| Smith. Do you ever feel that way? |
What way fearless forte? A raging roid? A manic, chain smoking dissociated depressive on a downward spiral? A sockpuppet multiplicity amnesiac almanac of travel? An emptied catatonic confusion of zero? Vishnu shock troopers want you to dance?
And all you want to do is daddy death logos doodle?
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Fort...
I can surely understand what you've been saying. and have myself long experienced much the same...
That fury. Eventually I changed. I don't know why. I still have feelings, but the quality has changed somehow. I can't explain it. I feel much more peaceful than I ever have.
I just wanted you to know: If you do let slip those feelings, I am not going to demonize you for it. |
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fortwynt
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| fortwynt wrote: |
| Smith. Do you ever feel that way? |
What way fearless forte? A raging roid? A manic, chain smoking dissociated depressive on a downward spiral? A sockpuppet multiplicity amnesiac almanac of travel? An emptied catatonic confusion of zero? Vishnu shock troopers want you to dance?
And all you want to do is daddy death logos doodle?
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Like
This
www.youtube.com/watch?v=oQP0nTeiZx0
Do you think I could be doing things I don't remember?
I think you are highly perceptive....you must be.
Do you think, by chance, there is a reason I float on the air at UC and have a friendly persona, but I come here to release the "weird"? |
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Fort...
I can surely understand what you've been saying. and have myself long experienced much the same...
That fury. Eventually I changed. I don't know why. I still have feelings, but the quality has changed somehow. I can't explain it. I feel much more peaceful than I ever have.
I just wanted you to know: If you do let slip those feelings, I am not going to demonize you for it. |
I appreciate that PNG.
I hear certain songs, songs geared at rage, and I feel the goosebumps....
I cycle between the personas....it is a definite switch that goes on and off....
I wouldn't say I have MPD...but I do think it is something close.
A clear presence that is cold, almost dead-like, watcher....this is the one who seems to be involved in facilitating some type of energy to others without my conscious control.
Then there is the Tranquil one, at peace with everything, loving and generous towards all people, saddened at the shape of the world and the sorrow of others....
Then there is the infuriated one, who has dreams of being a monster, on fire, sending flames to destroy things.
it is somewhat hard to reconcile those three...I think the real "me" is a peacemaker, an ambassador....but there appears to be others who at some point took up residence...not "me", but "in" me.
Once I remember a friend and I (the friend of the same name) decided it was a good idea, after reading some literature on psychic vampires, to try and call the four winds one night around 2am, in the forest....we started saying some things, calling them out, heard some strangeness nearby, the candles fell, and we ran screaming. |
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